Am I what I really wanted to be...

I just read a thought posted by my friend on her msn spaces...She talked about how we end up behaving badly with people and how we are rude with telecallers etc... It took me to my experience...

I have been rude to tele callers, to people calling up for jobs... To people coming over to office without an appointment and asking for 5 mins.... I don't meet them... as if, if they had taken appointment I would have met them... I know I can't help them, I know I am pressed for time, I know I don't need credit cards or loans, yet I do all that and disappoint one or at times many people...

I remember the times when I was looking for a job and seeking appointments... I use to say when I become an HR manager I will definitely not be like them... Yet when I am on the other side... I think only of me and my time and all the manners etc go to a moral science book... I never wanted to be this way... but I also wonder in this age and time can one survive without being like that... I still wonder

In the effort to be what I want to be am I am loosing out on what I am or what I really wanted to be when I was younger??? I really wonder...

Comments

Ramy Mahrous said…

nice article, we all feel that when we were younger we looked at some positions and say "If I were him/her"
and we get the chance we do not make anything :(

8:53 AM

"Love you" doesn't mean love anymore!!

We live in strange times what is seen is never shown what is heard, never said what is felt is not what's expressed "Love you" doesn't mean love anymore "hate you" doesn't mean hate either "sorry" is no longer a regret "thank you" no more an expression of gratitude "I am ok" never means things are alright and nothing is well in "I am well" and "all is well" "nice" no longer is so nice, and "that's ridiculous" may not be that bad A lifetime is spent deciphering meanings Reading between the lines and looking beyond the words Is a skill essential straightforward conversations are rare and life status always complicated... ...because We live in strange times...here "Love you" doesn't mean love anymore!! (c) shubhra December 24, 2015

अप्रैल का महीना

अप्रैल का महीना थोड़ा नर्म थोड़ा गर्म सन्तरा भी मिलता है और आम भी गोभी भी और भिंडी भी गरम पानी से नहाते है और कार में ऐसी चलाते हैं नए साल के प्लान बनाते हैं बीते साल के बही खाते टटोलते हैं अप्रैल का महीना थोड़ा नर्म थोड़ा गर्म ऐसे ही एक साल काफी गरम था अप्रैल का महीना अस्तित्व पिघला पहचान पिघली आमदनी पिघली लावा ही लावा था सब तरफ महीने बीते जलते जलते... फिर इस लावे में कुछ रंग मिलाए कुछ हिम्मत जुटाई कुछ इरादे किए कुछ मदद मांगी काफी तपस्या की काफी कुछ त्यागा इस अप्रैल के महीने से शुरुआत हुई एक नए सफर की मालूम नहीं था तब क्या अंजाम होगा सही गलत, अच्छा बुरा कौन जाने बस रंगों के साथ उधेडः-बुन में लग गए कभी जद्दोजहद, मायूसी, नाकामयाबी कभी पुरूस्कार, तारीफ और छोटी छोटी खुशियां कई पड़ाव पार किये... आज इस अप्रैल के महीने में आज ही के दिन पंद्रह साल पूरे हुए उस पिघलती दोपहर के जब ज्वालामुखी फटा था और लावा बहा था वहाँ आज एक न...

Anything but deceit…

Anything but deceit… I have forgotten you; Well almost. But, your memories, when they come, they sweep me unexpectedly like a storm. Events swirl in my mind with a flurry like the leaves that whirl with the force of the wind. Hurriedly I shut all the windows of my mind just as I would have done at home at the onset of a storm. The mind gets hazy and brown. The heart beats faster and face gets flushed red with rush of blood. Anger, hatred and disgust fill my thoughts. Just as rains succeed the summer dust storms, the storm within calms down as tears flow. Still, after all these years? Yes. How I wish I had lost you to anything but this. I ask myself questions. What if you’d gone off to some distant land, some road that was calling out your name, and a forbidden country from which no return was ever possible? Or if you had died, in a plane crash or in a road accident or just plain naturally? Then you’d be the man I thought you were and I, the woman that I want to be. I would have cried....

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