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I want

I want

to fly high like a bird
to swim deep like a fish
to flow freely like a river
to wander like a thought

no limits
no ifs
no buts
no yes
no no

to break free
to let go
to fly high
to swim deep
to be me

I am

a prisoner of my own thoughts
limited by my own self
bounded by my own belief

I want

to break free
to let go
to break free
to be me

Shubhra
composed on 27/12/06 at 1 am

Comments

Unknown said…
Hi Shubhra,

At last I am visiting your blog as I meant to. You can see I am a night bird too; 1:42 says my laptop clock.

This is a beautiful poem, and I know why it took you nine years to write it. Guess? Because it contains a yearning, a desire that was there all these years and which had not found expression.

As I have written on Caferati, when you write you are a different person, a new being different from your own. You will find that being in some of my short stories, links of which you can find at http://johnpmathew.blogspot.com.

And, oh, before I forget those are nice pictures and even your musings have a lot of potential.

Keep writing!

J

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